Thursday, November 18, 2010

Authentic Thursday week 2

I've made a commitment to post here every Thursday, and so here I am.
Picking up where I left off last week, or maybe jumping ahead in my journey...we'll see :)
The scary thing about the internet is we can all be publishers without an editor. Powerfully crazy!

Okie dokie now, I'm searching my memory and wondering which information is relevant and how detailed I should be in my disclosure. As I said in my previous post, I was rather discontented from birth and on into my teens. "Restless, irritable and discontent" to quote a well known book...
I did my share of "partying" so to speak. Starting in my pre-teens, I looked for outside artificial sources to make me feel better. Rebellious wild child!

At this point I'm pausing, still a little hesitant to provide too much information. I'm not so worried about offending anyone, it's just that I wonder how much is too much. At the risk of being completely transparent and tarnishing any glowing image you may have of me, here goes...I became pregnant at 16 and gave birth to a daughter who was immediately given up for adoption. That was 35 years ago. I won't go into the details of that, not right now...

I married at 17, had a son at 19, separated from my husband 6 months after my son was born.

So as not to overwhelm you, I'll close for now. Don't worry, it gets worse before it gets better :)

I wrote a song awhile ago regarding my past. Here are some of the lyrics:

See there's this girl and she's afraid to tell you...the many, many things she's done.
Yeah she thinks you may not approve of her past and you may want to turn and run.
If you choose to scrutinize her, you'll be disappointed for sure. Or can you love her for....who she really is?

Until next week...Peace and Love,


Catherine said...

Hello dear Susan, thank you so much for sharing from your heart. Telling our story to others in blog form can be quite scary sometimes. In a way, blogging is in itself an art form, we can chose at any time just how much of our true selves we will reveal..which is a little akin to intimacy itself..naked, dropping the mask .. suddenly we are again being judged, misunderstood, hurt etc. Yet, that is in fact what most of us crave/desire..a witness to the story & the journey.
I notice that this post has the label "authentic self"..I LOVE your song of that title & I adore your Art card range. Actually, I love the mix..your art & dialogue getting to know you. Do keep going. No need to apologize in anyway for the details that you disclose..we are all throughly human & have our own history to live with 0 ) no judgement here. Hugs {0} much love Catherine x

femme hesse said...

Catherine, You have such a wonderful way of expressing yourself! Thank you for encouraging me to continue in this blogging experience. I'm so glad you listened to my song, and happy you enjoy both my music and art.

Peace and Love,

maría cecilia said...

Dear Susan, I completely agree with Catherine, and also when you say that you don´t really worreid about offending anyone, this is your virtual space and you can do with it what you feel... I love everything about you my dear!!!!!
maria cecilia